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*Do you remember the joy that first kiss brought,
the pain that same disillusionment wrought?
Do you know what
it is to have a person never more to exist?
To have another tragedy follow so soon so swift?
Do you know what it's like to be given a kitten, so small, so
cuddly, and soft,
And to see it's life drift away so suddenly so soon?
Do you know what it's like to have something so dear taken away?
Twice within a week no time to reminisce.
Then to have a day meant to be so special and dear, become
nothing more
than another day in the calendar year.
The second of the two replaced with another, not a comparison but
one so altered and distinct.
Then to have someone purposely take it away, knowing fully this
will
cause more anguish in the midst of so much more.
Do you know what it's like to try to end it all at once, to try
to stop the pain
but fail in your own attempt?
Have you ever had people try to guilt you into wanting to live?
To have them ask you to explain the pain that drives your fury,
Or to explain your motive in your failed attempts?
They ask you to tell the secrets you've already buried, and to
resurrect the
memories of what is better left alone.
To have your whole world turned inside out, and to start your
life over
anew with a new philosophy only to lose track of
it amidst the chaos.
To build a new life surrounded by strangers in an alien place.
These few amongst many problems of mine slowly mount themselves
upon
one another only to crash down upon me.
Take heed in actions not thought out for their consequences shall
rue the day.
